I'm going to be really real here: there have been so many times I've felt inadequate in my writing or in my photography. I've allowed the negative voices & opinions of others & even myself- to creep up & set up camp in my mind.
Sometimes inadequacy begins to cloud my vision, until it becomes all that I can see.
You see, there may be a number of people who don't believe in me, sometimes I don't even believe in myself. There are people who expect me to fail, there are people who will readily & openly voice their distaste for my work, but in all honesty- their opinions don't define me. Despite this feeling of inadequacy- God qualifies me. I may be the first person to say I don't understand or know why or how, but He does. He qualifies the unqualified. He calls me to this, the creator of the universe creates with me, this is a privilege not a burden. I will fight for this privilege. I am on a journey now towards believing in myself the way God believes in me & each day I begin to understand more and more of God's character and love for me.
I love photography & writing, these areas that God is calling me to in ministry- but these are the areas that scare me the most. Work in these areas is always up for criticism, easily judged, ignored or thrown aside. You must be ever vulnerable & sometimes fear, fear of man, tries to take over. I'm sick of letting fear of man hinder me. I'm so done with it. Even when I fail, God beckons me to stand up & try again- inadequacy doesn't even exit in His vocabulary.
I will fail, I will stumble & I will fall- but I will get back up again & I will keep going.
We must get over the inclination, the innate desire in us to expect perfection or "readiness" from ourselves. God does not expect that, so why should we? All He asks is that you be willing. He chooses to use us in the midst of our fleeting emotions, doubts and fears & all glory to Him, He can make us great.
He chooses to use you- to bring His kingdom on earth, to be His hands & feet, to be a physical manifestation of His love.
What giftings has God given you? Develop them. What has God called you to? Don't hesitate after it. Do it. Work hard. Fight for it. Push yourself.
TAKE THOSE FEELINGS OF INADEQUACY AND CRUMPLE THEM, SHATTER THEM UNDER YOUR FEET.
FOR GOD'S HAND WILL BE ON YOU, ALL ALONG THE WAY-GOD IS WITH YOU.