I do full time ministry. But sometimes I don't full time commune with God.
I am detail oriented and organized and if I’m not careful I can go through the majority of my day without stopping to actually BE WITH GOD. It is one thing to believe in God and invite him into your heart- it is another to actually commune with him throughout the day. The days where I am non-stop work focused are the days where I feel the stress more, where I feel the unrest and the chaos the most. Things like health insurance and rent and finishing up projects, when left unchecked, can swirl around my head until I am drowning.
I always come back to the story when Jesus walked on the water. We can learn so much from it. When Peter was looking to Jesus, he had the faith to walk on water & he actually did it. That part of the story blows my mind. In the middle of the storm there is Peter- walking on water!! It is such an amazing testament to what we can do when we actually have faith for the impossible. But the minute he let the impending storm, the wind and waves, catch his attention, he sank.
This applies to us as well, even though we may not physically walk on water. We can easily start to drown when we focus on the storm rather than on the one who can calm the wind and waves at the sound of His very voice.
I want to live deeply rooted, firmly planted on the foundation of Christ. I want to live communing with Christ, not just a casual believer who has a quiet time in the morning because that is what I am supposed to do. I want to live and breath Christ in each and every moment of my day, even the mundane ones.
Something I’m learning: the peace of Christ can only permeate as much of my life as I allow it to. It takes being intentional, slowing down, refocusing on who God is and His heart for me and as I go back to my day allowing God into even the little things. We have to create space for Him in our busyness, or else we will go our whole lives missing out on what God created us for, relationship.