i've had some things rattling around in my mind lately. i've had desires to know God on a deeper level and to be known on a deeper level- yet something is holding me back. i feel paralyzed in some ways. i know my desires, i see them within my grasp- yet they are, or feel, unattainable.
i had the revelation: i've become comfortable, paralyzed. i've become dry bones. with the advent of social media things have changed. i'm not necessarily living in an obvious sin. i'm doing full time ministry, i serve God, i pray, i live by faith for my ministry & finances- but the last few months i've felt like something was missing. i've felt dry. i've felt disconnected, numb. i've been reduced to bones.
sometimes we, or at least myself over here, have this picture of the enemy that he is the big bad wolf. he's out to get us, and we are the innocent victims. that he uses these out of the box ways to hinder us, in our callings and in our life & honestly this is, in many ways, true. something i have realized however, is that we often times do his job for him. we disqualify ourselves, we take ourselves out of the race. we allow ourselves to be silently paralyzed, without recognizing the connection. i am being honest here friends, & i am preaching to myself as well.
i have felt this conviction so strongly lately. when i have a couple of free minutes- i end up on social media. when i wake up, & right before i go to bed- i end up on social media. throughout my day i end up on social media when i don't even mean to be. i recognize the irony that this post is being shared on social media & i'm not here to villainize it- but i am here to recognize its dangers. I am a firm believer that social media is a tool that we can use to bring awareness, to highlight testimony of our God: who he is and how he works. it can be used to build relationships, to share prayer requests, to communicate life happenings, to share joy and sorrows & those are all good things! social media is not evil! but there is a catch, there is a downfall, when it takes the highest place in our lives. when it eliminates us from feeling anything real, from being able to hold an intentional conversation in person. when it eliminates us from really living a life outside of cyber space. it can be like a silent poison, slowly suffocating us, while disengaging us from reality, separating us from who God is or why we are even here on this earth in the first place. as i began to process all of these things, and recognize this in my own life God pointed me to Ezekial 37.
i've read these verses many times, they are some of my favorite verses in the bible. i love the idea that the Lord wants to partner with us to bring life, when he has all the power to do it on his own. i've always associated these verses with calling forth life into those who are dry because they don't know the Lord, but this time God showed me a different side of this. just because i know the Lord does not mean that i am immune to becoming dry bones. he spoke to me that these verses reference his church, his people becoming dry and desolate, when his earnest desire is for them to be lively, living beings.
i often think about the state of our world and feel sad. people can be hateful, violence is prevalent, fear is a driving factor, and the trend towards hopelessness is all too real. why do you think an app like "pokemon go" is doing so well? yes it is fun, yes it is throwback and brings up nostalgia and all those great things... but in reality it is just another distraction. it is something to divert away from processing and realizing how hard things on this earth really are.
as christians, we live in the tension between heaven and earth. we live in the tension of being saved and living for the hope of eternity & feeling hopeless, feeling weary, feeling overwhelmed with the sin and destruction that seemingly reigns in this world.
rather than accepting the way things are, rather than shutting down, going into dry bones mode or not allowing myself to feel anything- i feel God calling me to a different option. I feel God calling me to wake up. our nation is in a state of dry bones, rather than accepting things as they are, this should fuel me in my intercession and standing in the gap for the state of my community, my city, my nation, my world.
we allow ourselves to be paralyzed and numbed by social media, afraid of the destruction and news we see, living like the walking dead. all the while, God is calling us into deeper relationship, he is calling us to partner with him in breathing life into dry bones. this starts with individuals, with the church coming alive, aligning themselves with God, stepping into their identity and destiny and calling others to do the same. when non-believers see someone sold out for Jesus, walking in freedom and their calling it is often irresistible, why then are so many people turned off of christianity by the church? because we are walking in religion not the true life that jesus christ brings. we are dry bones and we don't even realize it! God created us to live in constant, living and vibrant relationship with him. please church, here me out. come alive again. prophecy life and breath into your own lives and then extend that to others. bring jesus into your work place, your relationships, friendships, assignments, hobbies, days and nights and things will be dramatically different. there is so much more available to us than comfortable christianity, there is so much more for us than dry bones.
Lord, I ask you to breath life into my dry bones. I ask your forgiveness and lay down the idol of social media. may you take the highest place in my life. i am done living paralyzed to your presence and your goodness in my life. i know that there is so much more of you available to me & i beg you to breathe life into my relationships, my ministry, every single aspect of my life.